Php

Question

why is php very difficult to me?

Answer 1

You are the only one who knows the answer to this question.
It seems like you are not familiar with PHP concepts and how it works.
Googling something you don't understand is a common practice for all developers.

Answer 2

I don't know the answer to that obvioisly but I guess its because you are not used to C-style language syntax. But if you get to know it, It is fun. Or you can try alternatives like Go, Ruby or Node(if you know js)